These are a couple of pictures of me at my heaviest...weighed about 210-220-ish wore size 20 in pants...I don't remember what really got me to start working to lose weight cause I have almost always felt fat or chubby. Its funny that when i tell people who have known me that I had lost 70-ish lbs, they say something like, "I don't remember you being big." Maybe they are just being nice, I don't know.
This is me around the skinniest I have ever been other than when I was little. I am a size 8-10 and around 145 lbs. I remember still not being satisfied with my body but I know I definitely had many more "feel good about the way I look" days... and looking at this picture now I would love to be back to this weight. I think I look good here. Healthy and fit. I don't think my body can be a much smaller size than this healthily. I know I can lose this weight I have now, of course. I did it before and now I half the weight to lose. I just wish it wasn't so difficult. I hate having to constantly watch what I am eating and how much and when. It took so long to lose that weight too. It can be discouraging. I was jogging or using the elliptical machine for an hour 4-6 times a week with some weights and palates a few times a week too. I hardly ate bread or pop or sweets. I tried to eat healthy protein meals...and still it seemed I would only lose a couple pounds a month if any.
I know that is a healthy way to go... losing weight slowly, but I just want to lose a couple pounds every couple weeks. That is still healthy... but how do you do it? The only time I lost a couple pounds within a week was when I tried a practically all salad, with barely any dressing diet and then I couldn't even think about eating a salad for a few months. But I could see I got leaner and thinner and I felt good about myself.. if I could've still held down salad I might have stuck to that diet longer. So how do you do it? How can you lose weight at a healthy but somewhat fast pace without feeling totally deprived and killing yourself? Maybe you can't. Maybe that is the price for being skinny unless you are lucky enough to have that naturally fast metabolism that lets you eat whatever with no consequence.
Anyways, I know this is a really weird post for me but I guess i just felt like venting my internal battle... and who knows.. maybe this will help me get some motivation back, cause I would much rather be able to wear the closet full of clothes I have in that smaller size than buy ones to fit this body now.
6 comments:
Tara, I don't remember you ever being that big, but then again when was the last time I saw you? Years ago I am pretty sure. My weight loss is always sooooo slowwww. I try to eat healthy and more protein and vegies and it takes a while. I recently found these 2-3 min workouts on the "hulu" internet site and they are awesome! I could tell a difference faster and I would pick about 5 different couple min intense work out (like resolution solution) they seem to change and I hope they keep adding them on. Also the older you get and the more babies you have, it gets a lot harder. My last was two weeks old and I cannot get my skin to even remotely stretch back like I could the other three! Just keep up the good work, it is not fast and easy!
Tara, you are beautiful no matter what you weigh!
I do know EXACTLY how ya feel though! If you wanna maybe somehow start working out together, I'd be happy to.
We all know I've got some weight to loose!
You are a gorgeous girl no matter how much you weigh! It's really about the person that you are, and your wonderful attitude!
I miss you - I'm glad to see you're doing well! Cute family!!!
P.S. I haven't seen you - but I'm sure you look gorgeous, just as you are!
That is awesome that you lost so much weight before! I didn't realize since I met you when you worked at Roberts.
My sister recently started weight watchers and has already lost 20 pounds in just under two month or so. Her pants are already falling off her. When you have more weight to loose, it comes off faster though. I am not sure all the details with weight watchers, but I know she is doing awesome and it has really helped her and she still really enjoys food. If you want more details on that, I can ask her for ya or give you her number, she would be happy to talk to ya about it! Even just give you pointers if you don't want to sign up.
I did well loosing weight at first after Cohen, but then the last 10-15 pounds never really have come off. I think it will take a lot to get to where I want as well. It is frustrating! Good luck, I know you can do it again!!!
You are beautiful the way you are! I've always thought you were beautiful. When I move down there we can go walking every morning if you want to. Just have to find a place to go with our strollers. I enjoy walking with my little guy. Seems to have helped me loose some pounds too.
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