Here is another post where I just rant or something.
So, I have lost 4 lbs in the last 31 days with this Healthy Life Challenge.
Ideally I'd have lost about 10.
This is why I hate trying to lose weight. I AM glad for the 4 lbs lost and I definitely feel better, but I can't seem to get past this weight. This is as much as I could lose last time I was working hard to slim down. 179. That's the number. The number I don't like. The number I get stuck at.
What am I doing wrong?
It just SEEMS like since I was STAYING at the same weight with my sedentary and desserts daily lifestyle, that I should now be slimming (more) with my working out 3-5 times a week and eating much healthier...
No?
Now in all honesty we aren't eating perfect. I had cake and cookie dough (the non egg kind) and some nights we eat a skinny cow ice cream sandwich, but only one. We have eaten out a few times this month too. But Even still...the quantity of all those is LESS (sometimes a lot less) than I would have eaten before.
Do I just need more time. Will I lose 4 lbs a month? I guess I can live with that. That means I will get to my healthy weight eventually, and that would be just fine....albeit annoying.
I guess if I wasn't going to have any more babies it wouldn't be AS annoying...but I feel like I am crunched on time a little. We aren't having another baby for a while from now but still....I don't want to FINALLY lose the weight just to be pregnant and gain it right back...ya know?
Another thing that bugs me or maybe the REAL thing that bothers me, is that when I am working out or not SEEING myself, really then I FEEL like I look good. I FEEL like that fit slimmer self I once was...then I get dressed and see myself in the mirror and what I see is NOT what I feel. I see ugly.
And clothes fit stupidly and I feel like I can't hide it and dress somewhat nice at the same time. I can't even dress nice anyways but I really can't spend big money on nice clothes in a size that I don't want to be wearing. And the size that I am in clothing is usually cut for an entirely different body shape than I have. Because I "carry my weight well" I don't have "pooches" that the bigger clothes have alotted for, therefore making me look retarded in them.
And clothes fit stupidly and I feel like I can't hide it and dress somewhat nice at the same time. I can't even dress nice anyways but I really can't spend big money on nice clothes in a size that I don't want to be wearing. And the size that I am in clothing is usually cut for an entirely different body shape than I have. Because I "carry my weight well" I don't have "pooches" that the bigger clothes have alotted for, therefore making me look retarded in them.
And I don't want to wear my pants up to my chest!
Okay that's a little exaggerated...but where do you buy pants in larger sizes that don't go clear up to your belly button? Probably not at the cheaper store I go to cause I don't want to buy expensive clothes that I don't want to be wearing.
Okay that's a little exaggerated...but where do you buy pants in larger sizes that don't go clear up to your belly button? Probably not at the cheaper store I go to cause I don't want to buy expensive clothes that I don't want to be wearing.
And doesn't anyone make modest clothes??? We don't ALL want to show the world our cleavage and shoulders. Geez.
I hate clothes. I HATE shopping.
That subject right there just put me in a horrible mood. That is how much I hate it.
I do love that eating healthier has made me feel better as far as energy and this IS our new lifestyle, so I am never quitting or anything. What is there to quit? This is now our life.
I even look forward to my workouts a lot of times and I love that.
Now that I am at the end of this post I cannot remember what the point of it was. I think I just needed to vent. So, if you are still reading...thanks for letting me vent to you! ha ha
Now that I am at the end of this post I cannot remember what the point of it was. I think I just needed to vent. So, if you are still reading...thanks for letting me vent to you! ha ha
3 comments:
I already commented on Facebook, but the statistics behind what I said is:
Nutrition is 50% of weight loss. Weights are 40%. and Cardio is only 10%. So even though you feel great when you are doing lots of cardio, you really need to do weight lifting to drop the pounds. That isn't really what's important though. If you feel great and healthy, keep it up! :)
Hi Tara!
I hope you remember me... it's me Dara from Roberts :) I stop by your blog from time to time to see how you are doing. I love seeing your little family - I remember talking to you about it when we would have lunch or hang out. I am glad life is treating you well!
I felt strongly about responding after reading your post because I know EXACTLY what you're going through (minus the babies :o)).
I have been trying to lose weight for my wedding in October & even though I've been eating healthy, doing pilates, walking, weight lifting, mixing up my workout routines, all the stuff I "should" be doing, I haven't lost much weight in two months.
It took me a long time to realize that weight is much easier put on that it is taking it back off. You're losing a pound a week which is a healthy amount of weight loss! "They" say you shouldn't lose more than 1 - 2 pounds a week because its not healthy. I have gotten a lot more compliments over the last month about how much thinner I look & my clothes feel looser, but the scale hasn't moved more than 2 pounds! Its really frustrating, I know, but if you feel better, that's the important thing.
The scale is not the best way to gauge weight loss because everybody's bodies are so different. Muscle also weighs more than fat so if you're gaining muscle, you may not be losing weight, but you may be losing inches.
I am so sorry you are dealing with these struggles but you will get through it! Just remember to keep doing what makes you feel good & is better in the long term & the weight will go away eventually. :)
Thanks for being honest on your blog too - sometimes I feel like I am the only one dealing with these issues as a woman! Keep in touch :)
Dara Jean!
Of course I remember you! I think about you time to time and wonder how you are doing. You are getting Married in October!? That's awesome! It's so good to hear from you! You should email me longpicklebean at gmail dot com.
I'd love to hear more about whats going on with you! And maybe we can help each other with our weight loss. Motivation! YA!
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